Sometimes I have to remember that I am stronger than I think I am.
It’s funny because I’m forever encouraging other people to be strong or stay positive, yet I know myself that sometimes this is easier said then done.
I’m always being told ‘you’re so strong, I don’t know how you do it’ or ‘you’ve been through so much, you can get through this’ but I’m human and like everyone else I do have my bad days. In fact, I have really low days where I could literally cry all day if I let myself. I’m fortunate enough, in a way, that I have 2 children that depend on me. We are always on the go, whether it be; nursery, hospital appointments, play dates, etc, I have to get on with my day and paint on a smile because of our busy schedules! Peel back the mask and you will see I am a regular person battling more than you would ever expect.
The last month or so have been extremely hard for my husband & I. I have hit an all time low. I had all these dreams and future aspirations for this baby I was carrying and all of a sudden they are snatched from me and I just have to ‘deal with it’. I fake a smile to hide my tears and this is on a daily basis. I find myself saying ‘I’m fine’ yet inside I’m screaming for a baby I will never meet, never cuddle, never kiss.
I’m really hoping for a sunnier day. When at the start of the day my emotions won’t dictate the rest of the day.
Sometimes I have to remember that I am stronger than I think I am. And so are you!
Lots of love,